Yeah, this is the first time i've regretted doing something...I may have regretted not doing stuff, like not studying and all...but i have never regretted something of such a big scale as this...

I didn't take up chairperson cos i wanted power, or cos all my friends had top posts, and i didnt...cos if these were the reasons, i would have shown some interest when terence asked me to be photocomm chair...I refused then, cos i know that i had alot more to improve in my photography areas before i could lead a team of 20 in that field...When SE was chairperson-less, i wanted to take the post up as a challenge, to improve my entrepreneurial skills, and to just try and give something to hall..something bigger than just going down to support IHG games and such...I know many may have not liked me taking up such a post, and many have criticized it...but i dint care then cos i thought i could show them that they were wrong..

But now i feel they were right..that maybe i suck at this, and that maybe i shouldnt have taken this up...so many hiccups at the last moment...and now, the block comms are easily against me too...so well, i guess dreams dont always come true..

I'm sorry B7P if i fail you....please do better than how i'm faring...

Today's not really my day

So well, i wake up to find the following msg on my FB wall..

heyy nithss...
wen u comin malaysia...
ill prob call u frm de airport aiite???
tc.. cheers...
oh btw, keep me updated as to wt ur pkanss rr!!!

Then i was confused as to when they were coming here...I knew they were supposed to like be here during Chinese new year, and that left me like totally perplexed...

And then, once again i tried to find the wall of my so called best friend, and i couldn't find it...so well i guess i just ahve to accept the fact that she has limited profiled me...if only i knew why..

And then, my dear Mkt IC tells me another vendor backed out..thats like $300 down the drain..plus ofcourse the cost of the extra 20 tables...sigh....

Next sajjaad calls me, yeah from Changi Airport..and tells me he's here in Singapore...i mean like helloooooo...why couldn't you like have told me this earlier..and then they just decide that they will not even like pop in to see me...so i'm like that unwanted yeah...

and just one more...I know i like have a helluva lot of hall stuff to do and all..and thats why i refused to take part in infusion...and i dont regret my decision there...but i so do wish that some fo my friends here would understand me...and like stop talking about what happens at practices all the time..I mean like anytime i see them, they are talking only about this....and tehy dont really understand that i dont wanna talk about it...

Sigh..I need some enthusiasm and cheering up...and less hall commitments to get back into a normal lifestyle...AGAIN...