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Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Friends - A person whom one knows and with whom one has a bond of mutual affection, typically exclusive of family or social relations!!!
Yup thats what the dictionary explains it to be...and with that i mind, I;m sure no one can really be regarded as a true friend to me! Maybe its because i'm such a closed book, and rarely tell people whats going on with me, or maybe its just that i don't trust them enough to tell them whats happening with me...
Me being a closed book, i don't know how i can really overcome that situation...I've tried to...but it just seems to be something that refuses to leave me..
Trust - well, not many know whats happened with a friend i trusted....and thats basically the reason why to trust others isn't really my basic quality... for me, it takes time..and even then it doesn't really seem to step in wholly! And sometimes, i do go to the extent of being able to trust someone to some extent, but then that is once again broken...just because they decide to bitch about the element i decided to trust them with, with others....
The people i call my good friends, i can't seem to be able to trust them with everything..some of them know one aspect..while others know another...not everyone knows everything...and even i still need time to try and figure it out myself!
To add to it, there are things that sometimes people expect of some of their friends, maybe a little hi when they see me, maybe a little encouragement when i'm doing something out of the ordinary or challenging..and when i don't get that from them, i really don't feel even tiny bit appreciated, and somehow that does add to the element of trust!
I know many know that i'm a closed book, and therefore judging me based on content that i made available to the whole wide world just doesn't seem to be right, does it? Sometimes, the content maybe just so that some people are misguided on the happenings in my life, and sometimes, its just so that they will stop harping on some other stuff, which i dont even want them to think about!!! So people, before u judge me on something, take a moment to think if "i really would do something like that" before u actually do...
And when u bitch about me, just make sure that there really is no evidence left behind..cos most of the time, it does come to my ears!
Yup thats what the dictionary explains it to be...and with that i mind, I;m sure no one can really be regarded as a true friend to me! Maybe its because i'm such a closed book, and rarely tell people whats going on with me, or maybe its just that i don't trust them enough to tell them whats happening with me...
Me being a closed book, i don't know how i can really overcome that situation...I've tried to...but it just seems to be something that refuses to leave me..
Trust - well, not many know whats happened with a friend i trusted....and thats basically the reason why to trust others isn't really my basic quality... for me, it takes time..and even then it doesn't really seem to step in wholly! And sometimes, i do go to the extent of being able to trust someone to some extent, but then that is once again broken...just because they decide to bitch about the element i decided to trust them with, with others....
The people i call my good friends, i can't seem to be able to trust them with everything..some of them know one aspect..while others know another...not everyone knows everything...and even i still need time to try and figure it out myself!
To add to it, there are things that sometimes people expect of some of their friends, maybe a little hi when they see me, maybe a little encouragement when i'm doing something out of the ordinary or challenging..and when i don't get that from them, i really don't feel even tiny bit appreciated, and somehow that does add to the element of trust!
I know many know that i'm a closed book, and therefore judging me based on content that i made available to the whole wide world just doesn't seem to be right, does it? Sometimes, the content maybe just so that some people are misguided on the happenings in my life, and sometimes, its just so that they will stop harping on some other stuff, which i dont even want them to think about!!! So people, before u judge me on something, take a moment to think if "i really would do something like that" before u actually do...
And when u bitch about me, just make sure that there really is no evidence left behind..cos most of the time, it does come to my ears!
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
U've made my day!
I spoke to one of my best friends ever today, and realized how much i miss talking to her..about nothing and everything...From those deepest secrets to those "utterly nonsensical" gossip sessions...from the guys we all drooled over to the guys we eventually got together with...
I realized how much we've missed out on each other's lives, and how much we had to catch up on...U have to read this to know how lost the both of us are on the happenings with each other
She: So how's X?
Me: Oh he's good...doing extremely well i school
She: How many years has it been now?
Me: Oh, about 1 and a half years
She: Are u crazy? U guys were together for longer than that in school itself...It must be about 4 years now atleast
Me: :S what are u talking abt
(And then it hits me)
Me: OMG, u don't know..u mean u dont even know this..have we lost touch this badly!! I broke up with him a about 1 and a half years ago..after i came to NUS...and this time like seriously!
She: Are u serious? I'm sorry!!!!
She: But finally u did the correct thing..u deserve someone better!
And then the convo lingered on that topic for sometime...but by the time we changed topics, i was feeling really good..and i've never ever felt good talking abt this with anyone before!!
Someother takeaways from our conversation include the following..and she accused me of all of them in the most funniest way possible
I'm stupid - cos i dont express my feelings to the correct person in the correct way
I suck - cos i don't have the guts to even pass hints to "Y" about my feelings
I am useless - cos i have good networking and social skills, and yet i dont put them to use when it comes to the "person" that really matters
I need to be shot in the head - cos i don't seem to be able to prioritize btw the most important things in life...ofcourse right now its school work, but supposedly "the person" should be second on the list!
To my bestest friend, i love u..and i miss u loads and loads...thanks for putting my life in persepctive...and for the sake of ur hours of advice i will try to"give that guy some winks.."
I realized how much we've missed out on each other's lives, and how much we had to catch up on...U have to read this to know how lost the both of us are on the happenings with each other
She: So how's X?
Me: Oh he's good...doing extremely well i school
She: How many years has it been now?
Me: Oh, about 1 and a half years
She: Are u crazy? U guys were together for longer than that in school itself...It must be about 4 years now atleast
Me: :S what are u talking abt
(And then it hits me)
Me: OMG, u don't know..u mean u dont even know this..have we lost touch this badly!! I broke up with him a about 1 and a half years ago..after i came to NUS...and this time like seriously!
She: Are u serious? I'm sorry!!!!
She: But finally u did the correct thing..u deserve someone better!
And then the convo lingered on that topic for sometime...but by the time we changed topics, i was feeling really good..and i've never ever felt good talking abt this with anyone before!!
Someother takeaways from our conversation include the following..and she accused me of all of them in the most funniest way possible
I'm stupid - cos i dont express my feelings to the correct person in the correct way
I suck - cos i don't have the guts to even pass hints to "Y" about my feelings
I am useless - cos i have good networking and social skills, and yet i dont put them to use when it comes to the "person" that really matters
I need to be shot in the head - cos i don't seem to be able to prioritize btw the most important things in life...ofcourse right now its school work, but supposedly "the person" should be second on the list!
To my bestest friend, i love u..and i miss u loads and loads...thanks for putting my life in persepctive...and for the sake of ur hours of advice i will try to"give that guy some winks.."
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Burnt out
I'm seriously exhausted!!! My small lil brain is facing excessive information overload. My eyes are stressed out from excessive reading. My hands ache from excessive writing and typing. My body aches from the large number of walks up and down the biz library/stairs!!
And my heart aches since i watched the last OTH episode..and also cos i have not Scofield in my life for the past 2 weeks!!!!
And my heart aches since i watched the last OTH episode..and also cos i have not Scofield in my life for the past 2 weeks!!!!
Thursday, February 28, 2008
The dog
The family now officially owns a dog. And no, i don't know it's name, nor it's breed. I do know its color thought. Its supposedly a black puppy. Yup that's all the mother knew about it.
Oh, and supposedly it puked allover the house, cos its still small and its very new to the surroundings. Its supposedly getting used to the place though.
For now, it mostly stays on the rooftop, and i'm damn sad at that, cos i don't want my favo place of the house to smell like dog poo. But then again, it doesn't really matter when i'm not gonna be home for the next 1.5 years at least...
Oh, and supposedly it puked allover the house, cos its still small and its very new to the surroundings. Its supposedly getting used to the place though.
For now, it mostly stays on the rooftop, and i'm damn sad at that, cos i don't want my favo place of the house to smell like dog poo. But then again, it doesn't really matter when i'm not gonna be home for the next 1.5 years at least...
Monday, February 18, 2008
The most weirdest thing..
Suddenly, yesterday when i went down for Cast rehearsals, i got a tummy ache...like one of those gastric ones..and well, it was mild...and so i didn't take much notice of it...Then later, i ate a bit at Master's Forum, hoping that the pain would go down..
No on the contrary it increased....then i went back to my room, and lied down on my bed and TRIED to read some notes, but the pain was ever increasing, so i figured it should be alright if i have a good night's sleep..so off i went to sleep...
But then, it was horrible...i couldn't fall asleep properly..i kept waking up all the time cos the pain jus kept increasing..and i didn't even know what to do...then at about 2, i really couldn't stand it...Took ONE panadol, and tossed and turned till i fell asleep...and then, when i woke up in the morning, it had vanished..
Wonder what cause of this pain was??? I don't really know...Any future docs or those of similar nature reading this, please let me know....:)
No on the contrary it increased....then i went back to my room, and lied down on my bed and TRIED to read some notes, but the pain was ever increasing, so i figured it should be alright if i have a good night's sleep..so off i went to sleep...
But then, it was horrible...i couldn't fall asleep properly..i kept waking up all the time cos the pain jus kept increasing..and i didn't even know what to do...then at about 2, i really couldn't stand it...Took ONE panadol, and tossed and turned till i fell asleep...and then, when i woke up in the morning, it had vanished..
Wonder what cause of this pain was??? I don't really know...Any future docs or those of similar nature reading this, please let me know....:)
I'm having a tummy ache...gahh...seems like those gastric ones...
Anyway, in other happenings...
Fees Increments..here's a breakdown for Hostel Stay!!
Current Fees - $60 a week
AY 0809 - $75 a week
AY 0910 - $90 a week
AY 10/11 - $100 a week
This is outrageous you know!!! I mean maybe a fee increase can be rationalized by increasing costs of living and yadayada..but a 25% increase....madness ah!!!!!!
Anyway i'm going to mail master some questions, and when i get replies, i will post them on ma blog!!
Anyway, in other happenings...
Fees Increments..here's a breakdown for Hostel Stay!!
Current Fees - $60 a week
AY 0809 - $75 a week
AY 0910 - $90 a week
AY 10/11 - $100 a week
This is outrageous you know!!! I mean maybe a fee increase can be rationalized by increasing costs of living and yadayada..but a 25% increase....madness ah!!!!!!
Anyway i'm going to mail master some questions, and when i get replies, i will post them on ma blog!!
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Random updates, and thoughts
1. SHalentine is done and over with, successfully!
2. Global reunions rock! We should have more of them.
3. CNY break was too short. Chinese should have more traditions that make CNY last longer.
4. Running into long lost friends makes life so much more happier.
5. I need to be frequent my meetups with my long lost friend, and other Belvoirians in Singapore
6. I'm now addicted to a few songs, which i keep playing over and over again. I need a change.
7. Fee increments suck. Now i need to work harder to earn the money.
8. I'm seriously considering opening my own online shopping blog. Anyone wanna be my partner.
9. Prison break, and OTH are serious addictions.
10. Now i really NEED to mug!
2. Global reunions rock! We should have more of them.
3. CNY break was too short. Chinese should have more traditions that make CNY last longer.
4. Running into long lost friends makes life so much more happier.
5. I need to be frequent my meetups with my long lost friend, and other Belvoirians in Singapore
6. I'm now addicted to a few songs, which i keep playing over and over again. I need a change.
7. Fee increments suck. Now i need to work harder to earn the money.
8. I'm seriously considering opening my own online shopping blog. Anyone wanna be my partner.
9. Prison break, and OTH are serious addictions.
10. Now i really NEED to mug!
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Yeah, this is the first time i've regretted doing something...I may have regretted not doing stuff, like not studying and all...but i have never regretted something of such a big scale as this...
I didn't take up chairperson cos i wanted power, or cos all my friends had top posts, and i didnt...cos if these were the reasons, i would have shown some interest when terence asked me to be photocomm chair...I refused then, cos i know that i had alot more to improve in my photography areas before i could lead a team of 20 in that field...When SE was chairperson-less, i wanted to take the post up as a challenge, to improve my entrepreneurial skills, and to just try and give something to hall..something bigger than just going down to support IHG games and such...I know many may have not liked me taking up such a post, and many have criticized it...but i dint care then cos i thought i could show them that they were wrong..
But now i feel they were right..that maybe i suck at this, and that maybe i shouldnt have taken this up...so many hiccups at the last moment...and now, the block comms are easily against me too...so well, i guess dreams dont always come true..
I'm sorry B7P if i fail you....please do better than how i'm faring...
I didn't take up chairperson cos i wanted power, or cos all my friends had top posts, and i didnt...cos if these were the reasons, i would have shown some interest when terence asked me to be photocomm chair...I refused then, cos i know that i had alot more to improve in my photography areas before i could lead a team of 20 in that field...When SE was chairperson-less, i wanted to take the post up as a challenge, to improve my entrepreneurial skills, and to just try and give something to hall..something bigger than just going down to support IHG games and such...I know many may have not liked me taking up such a post, and many have criticized it...but i dint care then cos i thought i could show them that they were wrong..
But now i feel they were right..that maybe i suck at this, and that maybe i shouldnt have taken this up...so many hiccups at the last moment...and now, the block comms are easily against me too...so well, i guess dreams dont always come true..
I'm sorry B7P if i fail you....please do better than how i'm faring...
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Today's not really my day
So well, i wake up to find the following msg on my FB wall..
heyy nithss...
wen u comin malaysia...
ill prob call u frm de airport aiite???
tc.. cheers...
oh btw, keep me updated as to wt ur pkanss rr!!!
Then i was confused as to when they were coming here...I knew they were supposed to like be here during Chinese new year, and that left me like totally perplexed...
And then, once again i tried to find the wall of my so called best friend, and i couldn't find it...so well i guess i just ahve to accept the fact that she has limited profiled me...if only i knew why..
And then, my dear Mkt IC tells me another vendor backed out..thats like $300 down the drain..plus ofcourse the cost of the extra 20 tables...sigh....
Next sajjaad calls me, yeah from Changi Airport..and tells me he's here in Singapore...i mean like helloooooo...why couldn't you like have told me this earlier..and then they just decide that they will not even like pop in to see me...so i'm like that unwanted yeah...
and just one more...I know i like have a helluva lot of hall stuff to do and all..and thats why i refused to take part in infusion...and i dont regret my decision there...but i so do wish that some fo my friends here would understand me...and like stop talking about what happens at practices all the time..I mean like anytime i see them, they are talking only about this....and tehy dont really understand that i dont wanna talk about it...
Sigh..I need some enthusiasm and cheering up...and less hall commitments to get back into a normal lifestyle...AGAIN...
heyy nithss...
wen u comin malaysia...
ill prob call u frm de airport aiite???
tc.. cheers...
oh btw, keep me updated as to wt ur pkanss rr!!!
Then i was confused as to when they were coming here...I knew they were supposed to like be here during Chinese new year, and that left me like totally perplexed...
And then, once again i tried to find the wall of my so called best friend, and i couldn't find it...so well i guess i just ahve to accept the fact that she has limited profiled me...if only i knew why..
And then, my dear Mkt IC tells me another vendor backed out..thats like $300 down the drain..plus ofcourse the cost of the extra 20 tables...sigh....
Next sajjaad calls me, yeah from Changi Airport..and tells me he's here in Singapore...i mean like helloooooo...why couldn't you like have told me this earlier..and then they just decide that they will not even like pop in to see me...so i'm like that unwanted yeah...
and just one more...I know i like have a helluva lot of hall stuff to do and all..and thats why i refused to take part in infusion...and i dont regret my decision there...but i so do wish that some fo my friends here would understand me...and like stop talking about what happens at practices all the time..I mean like anytime i see them, they are talking only about this....and tehy dont really understand that i dont wanna talk about it...
Sigh..I need some enthusiasm and cheering up...and less hall commitments to get back into a normal lifestyle...AGAIN...
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