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Friends - A person whom one knows and with whom one has a bond of mutual affection, typically exclusive of family or social relations!!!

Yup thats what the dictionary explains it to be...and with that i mind, I;m sure no one can really be regarded as a true friend to me! Maybe its because i'm such a closed book, and rarely tell people whats going on with me, or maybe its just that i don't trust them enough to tell them whats happening with me...

Me being a closed book, i don't know how i can really overcome that situation...I've tried to...but it just seems to be something that refuses to leave me..

Trust - well, not many know whats happened with a friend i trusted....and thats basically the reason why to trust others isn't really my basic quality... for me, it takes time..and even then it doesn't really seem to step in wholly! And sometimes, i do go to the extent of being able to trust someone to some extent, but then that is once again broken...just because they decide to bitch about the element i decided to trust them with, with others....

The people i call my good friends, i can't seem to be able to trust them with everything..some of them know one aspect..while others know another...not everyone knows everything...and even i still need time to try and figure it out myself!
To add to it, there are things that sometimes people expect of some of their friends, maybe a little hi when they see me, maybe a little encouragement when i'm doing something out of the ordinary or challenging..and when i don't get that from them, i really don't feel even tiny bit appreciated, and somehow that does add to the element of trust!

I know many know that i'm a closed book, and therefore judging me based on content that i made available to the whole wide world just doesn't seem to be right, does it? Sometimes, the content maybe just so that some people are misguided on the happenings in my life, and sometimes, its just so that they will stop harping on some other stuff, which i dont even want them to think about!!! So people, before u judge me on something, take a moment to think if "i really would do something like that" before u actually do...

And when u bitch about me, just make sure that there really is no evidence left behind..cos most of the time, it does come to my ears!

U've made my day!

I spoke to one of my best friends ever today, and realized how much i miss talking to her..about nothing and everything...From those deepest secrets to those "utterly nonsensical" gossip sessions...from the guys we all drooled over to the guys we eventually got together with...

I realized how much we've missed out on each other's lives, and how much we had to catch up on...U have to read this to know how lost the both of us are on the happenings with each other

She: So how's X?
Me: Oh he's good...doing extremely well i school
She: How many years has it been now?
Me: Oh, about 1 and a half years
She: Are u crazy? U guys were together for longer than that in school itself...It must be about 4 years now atleast
Me: :S what are u talking abt
(And then it hits me)
Me: OMG, u don't know..u mean u dont even know this..have we lost touch this badly!! I broke up with him a about 1 and a half years ago..after i came to NUS...and this time like seriously!
She: Are u serious? I'm sorry!!!!
She: But finally u did the correct thing..u deserve someone better!

And then the convo lingered on that topic for sometime...but by the time we changed topics, i was feeling really good..and i've never ever felt good talking abt this with anyone before!!

Someother takeaways from our conversation include the following..and she accused me of all of them in the most funniest way possible

I'm stupid - cos i dont express my feelings to the correct person in the correct way

I suck - cos i don't have the guts to even pass hints to "Y" about my feelings

I am useless - cos i have good networking and social skills, and yet i dont put them to use when it comes to the "person" that really matters

I need to be shot in the head - cos i don't seem to be able to prioritize btw the most important things in life...ofcourse right now its school work, but supposedly "the person" should be second on the list!

To my bestest friend, i love u..and i miss u loads and loads...thanks for putting my life in persepctive...and for the sake of ur hours of advice i will try to"give that guy some winks.."

Burnt out

I'm seriously exhausted!!! My small lil brain is facing excessive information overload. My eyes are stressed out from excessive reading. My hands ache from excessive writing and typing. My body aches from the large number of walks up and down the biz library/stairs!!

And my heart aches since i watched the last OTH episode..and also cos i have not Scofield in my life for the past 2 weeks!!!!

The dog

The family now officially owns a dog. And no, i don't know it's name, nor it's breed. I do know its color thought. Its supposedly a black puppy. Yup that's all the mother knew about it.

Oh, and supposedly it puked allover the house, cos its still small and its very new to the surroundings. Its supposedly getting used to the place though.

For now, it mostly stays on the rooftop, and i'm damn sad at that, cos i don't want my favo place of the house to smell like dog poo. But then again, it doesn't really matter when i'm not gonna be home for the next 1.5 years at least...

The most weirdest thing..

Suddenly, yesterday when i went down for Cast rehearsals, i got a tummy ache...like one of those gastric ones..and well, it was mild...and so i didn't take much notice of it...Then later, i ate a bit at Master's Forum, hoping that the pain would go down..

No on the contrary it increased....then i went back to my room, and lied down on my bed and TRIED to read some notes, but the pain was ever increasing, so i figured it should be alright if i have a good night's sleep..so off i went to sleep...

But then, it was horrible...i couldn't fall asleep properly..i kept waking up all the time cos the pain jus kept increasing..and i didn't even know what to do...then at about 2, i really couldn't stand it...Took ONE panadol, and tossed and turned till i fell asleep...and then, when i woke up in the morning, it had vanished..

Wonder what cause of this pain was??? I don't really know...Any future docs or those of similar nature reading this, please let me know....:)

I'm having a tummy ache...gahh...seems like those gastric ones...

Anyway, in other happenings...

Fees Increments..here's a breakdown for Hostel Stay!!

Current Fees - $60 a week
AY 0809 - $75 a week
AY 0910 - $90 a week
AY 10/11 - $100 a week

This is outrageous you know!!! I mean maybe a fee increase can be rationalized by increasing costs of living and yadayada..but a 25% increase....madness ah!!!!!!

Anyway i'm going to mail master some questions, and when i get replies, i will post them on ma blog!!

Random updates, and thoughts

1. SHalentine is done and over with, successfully!

2. Global reunions rock! We should have more of them.

3. CNY break was too short. Chinese should have more traditions that make CNY last longer.

4. Running into long lost friends makes life so much more happier.

5. I need to be frequent my meetups with my long lost friend, and other Belvoirians in Singapore

6. I'm now addicted to a few songs, which i keep playing over and over again. I need a change.

7. Fee increments suck. Now i need to work harder to earn the money.

8. I'm seriously considering opening my own online shopping blog. Anyone wanna be my partner.

9. Prison break, and OTH are serious addictions.

10. Now i really NEED to mug!

Yeah, this is the first time i've regretted doing something...I may have regretted not doing stuff, like not studying and all...but i have never regretted something of such a big scale as this...

I didn't take up chairperson cos i wanted power, or cos all my friends had top posts, and i didnt...cos if these were the reasons, i would have shown some interest when terence asked me to be photocomm chair...I refused then, cos i know that i had alot more to improve in my photography areas before i could lead a team of 20 in that field...When SE was chairperson-less, i wanted to take the post up as a challenge, to improve my entrepreneurial skills, and to just try and give something to hall..something bigger than just going down to support IHG games and such...I know many may have not liked me taking up such a post, and many have criticized it...but i dint care then cos i thought i could show them that they were wrong..

But now i feel they were right..that maybe i suck at this, and that maybe i shouldnt have taken this up...so many hiccups at the last moment...and now, the block comms are easily against me too...so well, i guess dreams dont always come true..

I'm sorry B7P if i fail you....please do better than how i'm faring...

Today's not really my day

So well, i wake up to find the following msg on my FB wall..

heyy nithss...
wen u comin malaysia...
ill prob call u frm de airport aiite???
tc.. cheers...
oh btw, keep me updated as to wt ur pkanss rr!!!

Then i was confused as to when they were coming here...I knew they were supposed to like be here during Chinese new year, and that left me like totally perplexed...

And then, once again i tried to find the wall of my so called best friend, and i couldn't find it...so well i guess i just ahve to accept the fact that she has limited profiled me...if only i knew why..

And then, my dear Mkt IC tells me another vendor backed out..thats like $300 down the drain..plus ofcourse the cost of the extra 20 tables...sigh....

Next sajjaad calls me, yeah from Changi Airport..and tells me he's here in Singapore...i mean like helloooooo...why couldn't you like have told me this earlier..and then they just decide that they will not even like pop in to see me...so i'm like that unwanted yeah...

and just one more...I know i like have a helluva lot of hall stuff to do and all..and thats why i refused to take part in infusion...and i dont regret my decision there...but i so do wish that some fo my friends here would understand me...and like stop talking about what happens at practices all the time..I mean like anytime i see them, they are talking only about this....and tehy dont really understand that i dont wanna talk about it...

Sigh..I need some enthusiasm and cheering up...and less hall commitments to get back into a normal lifestyle...AGAIN...

Exams over!!!

Reached engin at 11.30 for lunch, and when we left NUH(yeah we went there for dessert...you shud try the strawberry milk ice there...its awesome!) it was 1.30..and i was like damn...how did i spend 2 hrs on lunch??? And then i realized, i dont need to be worried about spending so much of time on "nothing" cos i actually have nothing to do!! I'm done with exams..and that means end of sem 3 here in NUS!!

Damn it just feels so good to do all sorts of "nonsensy" stuff...and not feel guilty about it at all.....Mwahahaha...i love it when exams end...

Anyways, i better go and get ready now...we are gg to have chilli crabs at some place in Ang Moh Kio...and if i'm late, Dina will start her "aunty" scoldings again!

I know how i'm gonna get rich!

It has always been great to think of my self as this busy hotshot business woman, probably doing something like investment banking, and earning so much of money that i wouldn't even know what to do with it..Ok so maybe even if i were one of the richest ppl in the world, I'll still complain about not having enough money, but you get the point right..

So in pursuit of this ambition, I'm here at the Hell Gates of NUS, suffering and surviving, just to get a BBA which will take me to what i wanna do in the future..

But now, i have thought of a smarter plan...I think i'll just invest on my beauty, and get married to a rich man, probably some investment banker..(yeah then he won't be home for the most oart of he day, and i can be an independent woman also)... and then become what is known as a "tai Tai" i.e. those women who are married to rich men, and all they do is spend their hubbies' money, and go to all these big parties, and do extensive amounts of shopping, and play Mahjong...Ok so maybe i don't know how to play mahjong, but i'm sure its not tat hard to learn...or maybe i'll just skip that part...

So this means that i don't have to put effort into studying cos i'm gonna be rich anyways right??

F@#!ing pissed off!

So i went to down to the Hall office to apply for my vacation stay and storage...yeah i know i'm late but only by one working day lah!!!...And then Betty gave me both forms...and warned me about the fine for being late..I tried to plead with her saying that i was just a day late, but well i failed...come on, we are all really stressed out with exams..and forgetting something like this is not surprising..but oh well nevermind that...
Then when i had almost finished with both the forms, Valli refused to let me apply for vacation storage cos i was applying for storage in the middle of the vacation...WTF!!! She said i could apply for either 2 weeks at the beginning of the vacation or for 2 weeks at the end, not for bloody 2 weeks in the middle of the hols...F$@&!...What stupid rules are those???? I don't get the rationale behind that at all!!! I mean whats so hard ah??? Afterall I'm staying only cos of Hall commitments right..its all for Hall and they bloody cant be flexible with something like this..screw it!! And not like i have all the money in the world to just spend on F@#$!ing stupid stuff like this!
Now not only do i have to pay the late fee fine but also an Extra $120 or so when i'm not even gg to be in Singapore...I am so pissed off that i can literally feel the heat coming from me

Post exam bliss

I know exams haven't even started yet, and it's the "hell weeks" of the sem where any moment spent away from the books is unacceptable...but i was just thinking of the 6 weeks of bliss in December(well not 6 weeks maybe...but well atleast there'll be no schoool)...and i just had to blog abt what i'm planning to do then

1. Go home
2. Go shoppping
3. Get my camera fixed - Dilesh, if u are reading this..yes there is something wrong with the cam...more details when i meet u aite?
4. ECP - cycling and good food
5. Ice skating
6. Clubbing..

So B7P plus the rest of the gang...4,5 and 6 are hinted at u'll...lets decide on dates k????

Happy Deepavali/Diwali!!!

Lighting crackers...meeting relatives...hanging out with cousins...new pretty clothes...good food...mum's sweets...the Tv-shows..and simply the air at home...I miss all that..i wish i could be at home for Diwali:(

Anyways, here's wishing all my peeps out there an awesome Diwali!!!

Choices

Decisions - they are always tough..especially when they involve two alternatives, neither of them foregoable. And when you make choices amongst those alternatives, you really don't know if what you are doing is right or wrong, or if thats the best decision you can come to...but you know that sooner or later, you are going to have to choose...and so you do choose in the hope that everything is for the best.

But if that choice ever turns out to not to be the one that you should have chosen, then the amount of regrets, unhappiness, and sadness that it brings along with itself are just so large that they cannot even be defined by words.

I know i acted upon instincts to some extent, cos there should have been some reason behind my mind's hesitation, but then again, i always hoped that things would work out alright in the end...and i still hope so...although i really dont know how that is gonna happen...but i seriously hope that small incidents like this don't get in the way of me trying to make my choice sound as rational/correct as possible...

P.S I miss my mum...and dad...and i miss home...I wanna go back...:(

Its amazing how technology has overtaken our lives...Its become such an in-built part of our lives now, and without most of its offerings, i don't think many of us will be able to "survive" even a day..

Whats the 1st thing that you do when you wake up in the morning...well many of us (including me *sheepish grin*) tend to check our emails/facebook before even washing up!!!! Well most of those who don't atleast do so after washing up

And then, how many times a day do you check your email/facebook?

And how much of frustration do you go throught when the internet is down for just a few hours!!!

Can you imagine life without a cell phone?? I definitely can't...and i don't know how we managed to survive those years without a cell phone!!!

And then imagine life without TV/sopcasts/streaming..more like life without TV serials etc provided to us once again by technology....It wo0uld be horrible!!!

Sometimes, when people ask us how to spell a word, we "air-write" it because sometimes, we need to do that inorder to get the spelling out of ourselves...but the other when my friend asked me how to spell "exogeneous", i actually "air-typed" it!! I was simply shocked at myself while my friend was in absolute stages of hysteria!


Anyways, while i still ponder over the wonders and addictions of technology, i know i need to get back to studying for exams which seem to have come a bit too fast!!! So forgive me if the blog remains idle for some time...but wait come to think of it, i might jsut blog more than usual now since i need to study...and that means i find all sorts of ways of distracting myself from what i need to dooooo!!!

hey there delilah

Plain White T's Hey There Delilah Lyrics

a lil love?

Most of the time all you need is a genuine smile, a warm hello, a cute sms, a very short "how u doing" phone call, a small compliment...all you need is a lil love to make your day

I need

- A black/white cardigan
- A pink top (to match my pink skirt)
- lip balm (body shop or bliss tex preferably)
- a black handbag
- a pair of formal shoes
- a short formal skirt
- a pair of shades
- a formal cardigan
- scrunchies

I want
- a pair of small heeled open toed shoes
- a bronze bag
- a bronze/white belt (those big ones worn outside your clothes)
- a cute retro dress
- an off the shoulder top


So what does this mean? SHOPPING!!!! IN A BIG SCALE!!!

P.S. i know there's more in the back of my mind...but at the moment, with the swoc rally going on around me...i dont think i can think much..so as and when i remember, this post will be edited!:D